In the year 2000, as a culmination of the years of intense spiritual wandering, His Divine Holiness was revealed His Avataric Mission (purpose of advent on the Planet) by Existence. It was through a deeply mystical happening in the sacred river Narmada in Omkareshwar, Central India. Soon after this, He traveled Southward and began the revival of “Kailaasa” . Kailaasa is the original enlightenment ecosystem as described and established on the Planet thousands of years ago by Paramasiva — the Primordial Hindu Divinity, Himself. Here, His Divine Holiness — The Avatar, shares the happenings in Narmada:

“I had done many different types of tapas (penance) and tried different types of meditation techniques. Actually, I literally killed myself with these meditation techniques. Finally, a very sudden and deep depression landed on Me. I had a deep feeling of being cheated and thought to Myself: For the sake of enlightenment, I have left My family. Whatever has to be done according to the Vedic scriptures, almost everything has been done by Me. Yet, it is not happening. No enlightenment, only days are passing.

One day suddenly, maybe in the evening at around four, I felt excruciating pain along with the deep depression. I felt that nothing more could be done, that there is no need to live anymore, because whatever has to be done has been done. I never learned anything towards material life, so I thought, either I had to become enlightened or I had to die.

I was convinced that the whole concept of enlightenment was just a story. I thought it was never going to happen in my life. I felt that at least there is no possibility for it in My life. So I decided, ‘Let me commit suicide.’ It was such an excruciating pain that made Me decide to commit suicide.”

(In His deep frustration, The Avatār threw away the few precious belongings He had carried till then — His meditation mala, the picture of Ramakrishna Paramahaṃsa that He always carried with Him, His water pot, and His stick. He says He also discarded mentally the mantra that He had been meditating with since childhood.)

“‘Of what use is all this,’ I felt. ‘I believed in these people and wasted my precious youth. I no longer have any trust in all these great masters like Ramakrishna and Ramana. They have misled Me.’


I was on the banks of the River Narmada in Omkareshwar. This is the place where Shankara became enlightened.

I entered the Narmada river. Between the two hillocks, it runs very deep and fast. It has big falls as well. I started walking. When the water started coming up to My hip. In the terrible fear, I just shut My eyes tightly and continued walking. I continued walking and walking. I could feel the water continuously rising in level. At one point, I felt My breath to be very painful. I was breathing the pain inside, the suffering inside.

So much of pain had gone inside and at one moment, something hit Me. Suddenly something broke. When the breath came out, it came out just as bliss!

But I found that I was continuing to go inside the river. I was just moving. Since I had My eyes tightly closed, I don’t know how much distance I would have walked. When the breath came out with bliss, I felt completely rejuvenated. It was as if the whole of life had entered Me. I fell down and saw that I was in the other shore! I do not know what had happened. What I am telling you is the simple truth.

I do not know what had happened in between. Whether I walked through the water, or I walked on the pebbles and rocks, I don’t know. Suddenly, I could very clearly feel that Narmada was laughing at Me. The river Narmada is considered a virgin girl, Shiva’s daughter. I very clearly felt she was laughing at Me!

I wanted to share this experience just to tell you that when you touch the deep core of pain, you will see that bliss opens in you!”

A week after the depression of 25 Dec 1999, on the 1st of January 2000, The Avatār arose with the overwhelming Truth that He was One with the Universe. The Avatār then shared that it was in the utter relaxation on the banks of Narmada that the Avatāric Mission revealed itself to Him.

The revival of Kailaasa as a worldwide mission started in the year 2000.

The pictures show Omkareshwar and the sacred river Narmada. The pictures featuring His Divine Holiness were taken on 5 Jan 2006, when He visited Omkareshwar with His followers to give them a powerful experience of the enlightenment ecosystem of Narmada.

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Autobiography Of The Avatar from KAILASA

His Divine Holiness Bhagavan Nithyananda Paramashivamis the reviver of KAILASA-the ancient enlightened civilization, the great cosmic borderless Hindu Nation